Saying Goodbye

This time last year I was broken hearted. This time last year I felt helpless. This time last year I cut Logan's toe nails for the very last time. This time last year I felt like my heart was torn into pieces and stomped into the ground.

This time last year I said goodbye to Logan's left leg and foot.

I got into the bath with him and he squealed and laughed, I smiled with tears rolling town my face. He was happy but I was sad, so sad because I knew what tomorrow held and that this was Logan's last bath in a very long time. I rocked him to sleep and nursed him a little while longer than usual. I sat in the chair looking at my sleeping angel, feeling so broken, so sad, so lost. I held him tight all night, rubbing that foot every so often, those little toes would grab my fingers for the last time in my life would i feel those toes on Logans left foot.

This time last year was the hardest night of my life, I'm glad it's over and we have had such a wonderful year full of many blessings. We are thankful this hard night made us stronger.